I have 14 years, I have mild cerebral palsy .. And I worry that it may be a drug or alcohol problem .. I can not be sober?

I have 14 years I started 2 years ago smoking weed, I liked it and took my punishment tenction, I always use is like a drug, as it gave me things that pill addicts pain, so after a horrible detox I was with weeds, but they havea medical marijuana card (get something) So when I drink no libations badd high and I hate it, think it might be addicted to it now, if I'm not drunk, high, I'm upside down TPO that if I am going to go to something really bad, IIF health wise i drink, and sorry for my spelling drank .. I use to be a smart kid .. OPC was going to be a preacher .. now still drunk / high and I use to almost live a life without sin, overcame lust, etc. .. Now I lust Fulla, this is not the weed thats their consumption

First, as someone I was 14 and had mild cerebral palsy, I'm not even sure this is real. (There are several things in the grammar and syntax that made me suspicious.) But, assuming for a moment that you are serious. If you are really uncomfortable, and I suspect you are, you should seriously consider muscle relaxants. Ideally, I would suggest medication long enough to do some intense physical therapy with the hope that later could wean the pills. Their problem is not unlikely to significantly change and dependence on long-term effects on chemicals (weed, alcohol, or other) seems to be a bad idea. It is possible to go suddenly in the brush you're working to be an alcoholic, however, the real problem here is that you try self-medication a problem, you should really be a little professional help. That said, if you get your doctor to sign a medical marijuana card for you, send me your number. (Just kidding … Most of the time.) Good luck with everything … If you are a young kid and has lots of life ahead.